Angels. Demons. mAGIC.

November 2020

2020 has been a year…

Aside from the pandemic, lockdowns and numerous other concerns, what I like to call writer’s depression, set in hard.
I’ve been having to deal with a lot of inner turmoil over the past year. Specifically dealing with my lack of confidence in my writing abilities. AKA, believing full heartedly that I can’t write anything worthy of other people reading.

At the beginning of the year I decided to delay the audio book because I wanted to work on book one and honestly make enough changes to call is a second edition. It has been out since 2013, with only some very minor edits since. It has not sold well, and while I can blame that on not having endless funds to market my book, it really feels like it comes down to my lack of writing skill. I’ve had both good and bad feedback, but considering I have grown as a person and a writer since first releasing Immortal Requiem, I thought it was time to make some necessary changes in order to flesh out and do justice to the world I had created, and love very much.

Unfortunately, as I attempted to delve into this endeavor to right the wrongs I made to this book as a teenager, I ran into a problem. Between the growing depression I had been dealing with since a young teen, to events that happened in 2019 that emotionally wrecked me, I was not able to type a single unscrutinized word on my keyboard. It was all garbage. How was I supposed to fix my mess when I couldn’t even write a sentence without doubting every word choice?

That’s how it’s been for the past year.

I would love to say I’m better and I’m back on track, but I can’t. My over all, general depression has improved and my quality of life is on the mend. However, the devastation to my writing confidence has not been restored. In fact, it only grows worse with each passing day I don’t write.

I think about writing all the time. I still love the idea of it. I still think of ideas and plots and characters and the passion of creating is as alive as ever. But I can’t get past my own self-doubt. The Author Note I made a little over a year ago expresses my feelings now, more than I think it did when I wrote it.

Note from the Author

As an author we love to set goals and sometimes we meet them and even beat them. However, often life gets the better of our time and our minds. I’ve had, and continue to have a rough 2020 in my personal life. Dealing with family death, relationships breaking apart and being pieced back together and continuing my daily battle with depression.

I have a lot of things to be grateful for, and I am, but between the good and bad, writing has been something I have struggled to maintain. I haven’t given up on The Silent Ballad Series and someday I will find value in my writing and myself again. I know if I force myself to write when I feel like my writing is inadequate, I will not give my fans the stories they deserve or the ones I want to tell.

Thank you to anyone who still cares and sees this update. I know I don’t have a “fan base” to really apologize to, but there may be a couple of people out there that actually care to know what’s been gong on.

I want to try and turn my life around in 2021, get my second edition completed and released and even have Lamented Carol more on track. I don’t know if I’ll be able to, but I’ll do my best.
I know it doesn’t sound like much, but if you have any positive words for me, please leave them on The Silent Ballad Series’ facebook. Even the smallest words of encouragement can make a huge difference.

Thank you for being patient with me and I hope to provide adequate novels in the future.

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Reviews for Immortal Requiem

"You are hooked in the first page. The writer transports you to Evangeline's world and carries you along on her journey. She introduces characters in such a way that you feel like you know them. You laugh with them, cry with them, hurt with them, love with them. I am looking forward to the rest of the books in the series. I am confident the writer won't disappoint with those either." -Ruth

"Wonderful book! I finished it today, I cannot wait for the next one! Evangeline as a character was very well described and I loved that!" -VW

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